Its Dark In Here – Free Choice Writing

I looked around me and it was all a blurred haze. Everything happened so fast. I knelt inside the dark cavern I was put in. My hands were tied up behind me. My wrists burned with every movement because of the rope binding me. The tall black walls of the cave looked daunting. They looked as if they would swallow me whole. As if they would eradicate any evidence of my being. Erase me from existence. My breath came out fast and shallow. It was hard to breathe now. I was beginning to suffocate! My mind raced and my heart pounded like a demon trying desperately to break open from his cage.

“What am I doing here!” I thought to myself. Sweat formed on the palms of my hands. I began to struggle and thrash. All I saw around me was the cave and I felt that if I kept my eyes open any longer; the sight would sniff out any light left inside my dying heart. It would steal any semblance of my sanity. I realized struggling was no use but I knew I had to leave. I had to get out. I had to get out!

“Help!”, I tried to shout but I couldn’t get myself to make a sound. I tried to swallow but I wasn’t able to. There was no moisture in my mouth. My throat was dry and I realized that tears lay on the ground. My cheeks were wet and my eyes were tired. Never in my life had I felt so afraid and it left me numb down to my very core. I didn’t feel now, I couldn’t feel anymore.

Realization began to dawn upon me and I began to think; this could be forever, and I might have to do this forever.

But somewhere inside the deepest parts of my heart, somewhere within kept so desperately hidden; I knew, that this was all in my head. And I was scared; terrified of myself. I felt a feeling of doom; a feeling of dread.

“What’s it like?” you ask.

This is what it’s like to be stuck inside your own head. To be kept a prisoner guarded by the demons I created myself.

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